Mychildren Mybride's Joe Lengson Releases New Book Today

I AM INDECISIVE. I can’t ever choose something and stick to it. I think that’s why I hate war. Because you have to choose one side and fight against the other side. It’s far too pressing of a matter for me.

Throughout the last years of my high school career, my friendship with Brandon grew not only because we shared a love for music and coffee, but also because Brandon was the only person who ever thoroughly told me of God. I had another friend towards my senior year of high school, Dane, he also explained God to me. I had never been told of God before, I thought God was just a standard conception used to keep people in line, but not really real. The lack of any kind of religion had a major affect on me. I was raised in a non-spiritual home; I never went to church, and had no idea of God or church or anything like that. Though, I was aware of God because I live in America. I was taught that there is a God but I never was taught in depth the meaning and purpose of God. I saw the movie “The Passion of the Christ,” but thought that was just a Hollywood film company making a movie based on a book, like they do with fairytales or novels or comics.

I had never been introduced to God and did not know the omniscience of God because no one had ever told me in depth. I knew that there was a God, but I didn’t follow or respect God as a guardian over me, just like most of the world doesn’t. I thought, if there was God, He would be sitting on a cloud couch, controlling weather, like in the Disney movie “Fantasia.”

Growing up, throughout school I would use my imagination and develop my own theories and ideas about the world and the way that it works. In school, it was mandatory to teach both sides of the beginning: The Creation Theory, and The Evolution Theory. I remember my science professor was obviously not a Christian and further explained the Evolution and the Big Bang Theory. I thought it was so funny that he very descriptively and scientifically taught Evolution with every aspect covered, leaving little imagination for anything else. He barely, hardly, kind of, educated my class on The Creation Theory. 

The Creation Theory states that a metaphysical almighty power or creator, created the world and everything in it. This includes the Earth itself to all living organisms. The problem with learning this theory in school is that it is against U.S. law to teach religion in school, so my teachers would simply leave the rest up to the students prior knowledge or imagination about creation. What this theory really means is that God created everything. 

The other idea schools would teach is The Evolution Theory. This idea states that 13.7 billion years ago there was this big piece of hot dense matter in space, which spontaneously combusted due to energy and all that matter had expanded all over the universe and created this galaxy. On these pieces of matter, small life forms had happened to exist and survive for many years. These small life forms are called amebas, which are single celled organisms, which are the smallest of all life forms. All these amebas all over this matter happened to survive under various atmospheric conditions and evolved into something different, which grew and grew and grew over the entire lifetime of this universe. This process went on for many years until this theory claims that we as humans, in fact evolved from an ameba.

Both theories are hard to believe for anyone, many people are just so confused by the whole aspect so they just ignore it and don’t believe in anything. I can truly say I’m still confused. Even with today’s scientific advances there is still no way to candidly prove or disprove either theory, which is why it is such a fierce and delicate topic.

I think it is okay to not know, no one wants to be wrong about anything. No one wants to give in to something they don’t understand. The way people choose a theory is by faith. Believing in something they cannot prove is a bold and scary move for anyone, however, it is extremely respected. 

I have always been an indecisive person. I’ll drive around town asking myself where do I want to eat lunch for 40 minutes until I have completely weighed the pros and cons of eating at a particular place; whether the price is reasonable, or how hungry I am, or if that restaurants portions are decent, or if they have good reviews, or whatever. It’s a really bad habit. I once wasted a half tank of gas driving around contemplating what I wanted to eat for lunch. It’s terrible.